How Married is Married?

I found out a few days ago that while we were married, my husband had an affair. He used to work here in town, with someone I went to high school with.

I went in to the store on Thursday with my youngest son, and happened to start a conversation with him. I mentioned that we were divorced and he asked if it was because of her. I couldn't find the words to answer him. I wanted to say yes, because I didn't want to be "that wife" who didn't have a clue. I wanted to say no, because I didn't want to lie. So I just said it was a lot of things.

And now I have this to deal with. It wasn't enough to have to deal with the fact that my marriage was over, now I have to deal with the fact that it was a SHAM. Now I have to go back and erase the regret, because what is there to regret? It wasn't like it was a real marriage.

Looking back, I remember things that seem apparent now. The pictures that were sent to his cell phone that I happened to find..."Oh those are from Jake" (the caller id did say Jake). The realtor that called our house about a place in a different town. "Oh, I was just calling to get prices in case we wanted to move there".

God, how could I have been so stupid??